papa ain't got no more bag

i got the feelin'.... it is with a heavy heart that i report that one of my idols has died... James Brown

it reminds me of the night George Harrison died (the last living Beatle :-P)... with soda cans rolling down the street and jen(n) and i's introduction to hoobastank.

"baby, you don't know what you do to me"

tonight is the night...

...i fell asleep at the wheel.

you're the last thing on my mind.




i love good songs.

keeping my day job

just for jen(n). an artist's rendition of my apartment since i don't have a camera of any sort...

raincoat

i desperately want someone to come home to...
a last call of the day.

it's that void of loneliness in my life that is driving the sadness to the surface. that which is causing all my forward efforts to be erased by two steps backward everyday.

its hurting me and hurting the people i love. and i don't know how to fix it.

and i've got no one to help me so i have to figure out how to do it alone. which is the source of the problem itself.

-> i need a phone call. i need a raincoat. i need a big love. i need a phone call. these train conversations passing me by. and i don't have nothing to say. you get what you pay for but i just had no intention of living this way. i need a phone call. i need a plane ride. i need a sunburn. i need raincoat. and i get no answers. and i don't get to change. its raining in baltimore baby, but everything else is the same. there are things i remember, things i forget. i miss you, i guess that i should. 3500 miles away.. what would you change if you could? i need phone call. maybe i should buy a new car. i can always hear a freight train baby if i listen real hard. and i wish it was a small world cause i'm lonely for the big towns. i like to hear a little guitar. guess it's time to put the top down. i need a phone call. i need a raincoat. <-cc

new shoes

so i'm working hard everyday just to see life in the best light possible. i got friends i love, a job i love, a roof over my head, heat on those cold nights, etc, etc.

sure it could be better, but i know it could be way worse. knock any of those elements out of that list. or imagine all of them gone. there is people in the world who have none of those things and i am damn lucky i am not one of them. more importantly though, i'm thankful for it.. so much so that i am disappointed in myself that i could ever complain about my life.

i'm looking forward to find christmas time stuff and a brand new year to make things great...

... i hope you are, too. :)

lost

trying real hard to figure it all out.

i need help.