Someone once told me "everyone is put on this planet to do something... some of them are here to teach you tolerance..." He always said it.. I always believed it.

It still rings very true.

But more than that, I have always believed that there is something stronger controlling our destinys, controlling what we are meant to do. It's those times in your life when you just don't know why you turned around, called someone, did something at just a certain that was most important. It's like some supernatural force drives you to do it. You don't question it. You don't doubt it (at least at the time). You just do it. It's somewhat awestriking... somewhat humbling... too often, disheartening.

In respect to other people, I think that everyone that passes through our lives does so for a reason... if not to teach us something about ourselves, to lead us out of the dark.. into the dark... or back again. And as much as all those people in our lives are meant to be there for us... we have that job with other people...

And that's what makes it hard. When you wonder if you should let go and something bigger keeps you holding on. When something won't let you move on... when something won't let you be pushed away no matter how incredibly hard someone tries.

And with the heartache it puts you through... I can't help but wonder who is being taught the lesson.. me or them. Maybe both.. maybe neither...

Maybe I'm wrong. But I hope I'm right... cause if not I fear my life has been futile.
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Song(s) to d/l:
I'm Alright - Jars of Clay
No Rain - Blind Melon
Losing My Religion - REM