did you ever have one of those times when you just wanna say 'grrrr..'

grrr for the past
grrr for the present
and grrr to the fact that the future doesn't exist for that moment
maybe cause you were dumb in the past
or maybe cause you were smart
but you'll never know
because you don't know if not reacting then
was better on worse than now
cause you can only see one side of the coin
was it heads i win
tails you lose
or was i always the loser with a 2-headed coin
who's to know
who's to tell

but you
so grrr to you
in the past
present
and non-existant future
grrr to the non-realities
grrr to the truth
grrr to not knowing
if i should be regretting
grrr to regretting that i want to regret

grrr to the fact that you're worth it
and grrr that you'll never know
that i think you're worth regretting
what i may or may not have done right in the past
but prolly couldn't even change now

grrr to not even knowing i want it to change
grrr to the fact that it is my indecision
or denial
or whatever
that caused the inaction of the past
the blah of today
and the of the future

grrr.. :-/